Depression and Suicide affects millions and is real

Recently Mike Flannagan killed himself. There has been a lot of debate and talk about why he did it and where his head was at. At the end of the day, people have no idea why he did it and they think that all of the things that have come out are stupid and no one understands how he could do something over which seems to trivial.

The thing is, that most people do not understand what it is like to suffer from that type of depression. Unfortunately, I do know what it is like. When you suffer from that, you view the world in a totally different way. You see things very different then most people. You learn to put on a front and a show to cover how sad and depressed you really are. You are able to have fun and you try to live your life, but on the inside you are in pain and you are getting pull down by yourself each day. You take everything personally and you put blame on yourself, even when no one else is blaming you or thinking negative of you, you find a way to convince yourself something is not only your fault, but that every person around you is blaming you. It makes you question everything you do and it makes you think that no matter what you do, even if people are being nice and/or complimenting you, that it is still wrong and you are still messing up.

Depression affects a lot of people a lot of different ways, but it is that overall feeling that no matter what you do, you are not right and no matter what you do, you can get happy that drives so many people to suicide. So many people say that suicide is weak and cowardly. Those people that say that do not suffer from depression and they have no idea the toll it takes on you mentally. I am not condoning it at all, but I am also not saying it is bad.
When you suffer from this depression, it affects the way you think, and suicide is just an awful affect of it. There is no cure for it. You can do counseling, you can take meds, etc., but overall the only way to try to get past it is find someone and something in your life that makes you so happy, that over takes the depression. The problem with that is if you ever lose that or if you ever doubt that it is making you happy, you will slip directly back into that life of depression.
Another thing that can be done, which so many people do not do, is admit that they are sick and have a problem and that they need help.