Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Getting back with your ex

This is a blog in process, I have so many thoughts on this, and I have so much emotion towards this topic. There is so much I want to write about this topic, but I have to give myself some more time to think about it. I think for some people there will always be problems and they will break up and get back together, and eventually it will work out because they have so much love. On the other hand, I think some people think they love each other, but in reality, they do not have love, and they keep getting back together, but it never works. Like I said, I have a lot of opinions on this. I have to think for a couple more days before I write more about this topic.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Sports and Tv from this weekend

- Michael Oher may have won the rookie of the year award yesterday for his work on Allen while Harvin got hurt, Stafford was out, Sanchez looked awful, Pettigrew didnt play
- Moreno could overstep Oher in ROY tonight
- Larintus for the Rams is far and away defensive ROY
- The saints and vikings look like the real deal, the question is can they go on the road in the playoffs and win, or will they even have to?
- Office has not been as funny this season
- Curb your Enthusiasm is back and is very funny
- Are the pats back and for real, or are the Titans really that bad?
- The tie-breaker for the ACC team to go to the champ game in the ACC is highest BSC standings, that does not bode well for VT.
- If TCU wins at BYU this weekend, will they jump into the top 5, will they jump Boise?
- If Cincy and Iowa go undefeated for the rest of the year along with TCU and Boise, and Texas has one loss and the loser of Fl/bama has one loss, and 2 other teams have one loss, who is playing for the national championship
- I will watch a MLB playoff game if I see it on tv, but I really have no interest in these playoffs for some reason, what are the series at right now?
- Winter Warz by Ghostface Killah maybe the best song by anyone in wu-tang
- Everyone is blaming the kicker for the Ravens for losing the game, but if an NFL team is giving up 400 yards of offense and 30+ pts, who is really to blame?
- I know that no one cares, but the NBA is starting soon, there is some great rookie talent in the league this year, and overs are always hot at the beginning of the year, because teams do not have their defenses set up.
- Top Chef and Road Rules/Real world challenges are the two best reality shows on tv, followed by Shark Tank,
- Zorn had his play-calling taken away and Campbell got benched and they lost to the Cheifs, are the Skins now the worst team in the league. That would be a bold statement in a league where the Rams, Raiders, Titans, Browns, Texans, Bucs, Eagles all play
- I have to assume that Ron Zook is going to be the fist NCAA coach fired this year. I know firing coaches mid-season doesn't accomplish anything, but he has to go.
- Community and Modern Family are two very funny new shows on tv
- The sexual tension between the 2 main characters in Bones is exactly the same as Mulder and Scully had in x-files, does anyone else see that?
- If the Orioles want any chance of competing next year, they have to sign Gonzalez form the padres and lackey from the angels, that is the only way to compete in the al east

Thursday, September 10, 2009

My life while I think about turning 30

As I sit and think about where my life is now, I used to get depressed and sad. I never thought that this is where I would be at this stage in my life(Divorced, no kids, a job I sort of like, living in a house I sort of like, hanging out with the people I hung out with 15 years ago, etc..), but then I realize that this is where life has taken me and I can’t be sad or upset with it, I just have to take it for what it is, and go from there. I look around me and every single one of my friends seems to have everything going for them. Everyone seems to be happy with their life, their job, their relationships, etc..It seems like I am the only one questioning my life, and I am the only one that has any issues, like I am the only one who has any depression or sadness or issues of any kind. I then think, most of my friends don’t really know how I think and what I think about day to day, but I still wonder, am I just losing my mind and I am the only one that has crazy stuff going on, or does everyone have stuff going on and they just do not want to talk about any of it. Everyone looks at me and thinks I have this great life, because they only know the outside shell of the traveling, friends, parties, etc., but there is so much more going on.
I am not sure how all of this will play into my book, but I will find a way to get all of this in there.

The flip side of all of this is that I have led an incredible life so far, and even though this isn’t exactly where I thought I would end up, I don’t have any complaints for how I have led my life. I have made some decisions that I probably should of made different, but those decisions helped shape who I am today. I have traveled to the following areas around the world and seen and dome some amazing things in these places; Switzerland, Toledo, Madrid, Morroco, Canada(3 times), Cancun, Aruba(2), Bahamas(4), Acalpulco, St. Kitts, St. John, Bonairre, Curaco(sp?), driven cross country twice and been to most cities in the U.S. I went to a great college and made great friends down there, I lived in Boston for 5 months and made some great friends up there also. I have had numerous jobs where I have not only met great people, but made a lot of money doing them. I have been in many weddings, and have been to many more. I have bought and sold/rented out 2 different houses, I have been in love, I have been in love again, and I have owned 3 cars. I have been to over 50 concerts and had some of the best times at those shows. On the other hand, I have been divorced, I have had my heart broken, I have had my heart broken again, I have been screwed over by best friends, screwed over by family, screwed over by jobs, I have lost my grandparents and my mother, I have gone from having all the money in the world to feeling like I have none of the money in the world. It seems like I have had so much happen in my life, and sometimes it just all catches up with me.

With all of that being said I find myself in a place now, where one day I am incredibly happy and satisfied with my life, and the next day I am depressed and thinking what went wrong and where did I make mistakes, and what can I chance. I do know that thinking about/dwelling about negative things and things in the past will get me no where, and all I can do is continue to live my life and make myself exactly who I want to be.

When it comes to my best friends, I went through a phase where I was torn about some of them, but at this point, I am 100% sure who my friends are and who is just a fake friend. I will say, that so many people that I have met since I started going to college judge me and judge my friends, because we are all friends from high school, and that we need to branch out and make other friends. I remember being in the dorm, and I was the only person that still had good friends from home. I will say that Towson and Baltimore is the type of town that people stay close in. I have made some great friends in college and after college, but the majority of my best friends are people that I have known since I was very, very young, and I know they are all true friends. Some still live in town with me, others live across the country, but no matter what, we are all still very close.

I guess most of this comes from another one of my friends turning 30 this weekend, and with my 30th quickly approaching, it makes me think a lot about my life and where it is now and where it is going. I know I am happy and I have a good life, I just feel like sometimes I am just floating through life and I am not sure which direction I should be going in.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Wedding Weekend

I have now been to 3 weddings in the last 6 weeks. Each one is very different in its own way with theme, people there, flowers, location, etc., but at the same time they are all very, very similar.

I love going to weddings, and I love everything they stand for. I will say, that at each wedding, there is still a little part of me, that even if its only for one minute, I think about my wedding, and what I went through, and I just hope and prey that the people getting married that they never have to go through what I went through.

Another similarity at these weddings is how me and my friends are viewed by the people getting married. Every single wedding, we are viewed as the trouble makers and viewed as the people that have to be told over and over again to make sure they behave themselves. An example of this would be at the wedding we were just at. 7 of us from Baltimore were up at the wedding, and we all have grown up with the groom and known him our whole lives. 4 of us were groomsmen in the wedding. That all being said, we were sat at a table that was so far away and half outside of the pier we were on, that we couldn't even hear any of the speeches or toasts. No one else at the table took it as an insult, but I took it as a direct slap in the face. We are supposed to be best friends, and half of us were groomsmen, and we still got shoved as far away as possible, because they thought we were going to be loud or rude or something like that. Then, within the hour, people were not really on the dance floor, and the groom came over to us and asked us to go on the dance floor because he knew we were fun, and people would follow our lead, and that turned into a huge dance party.

2 days late after all the wedding brunches and festivities, all that was said to the bride and groom and their families, was how nice and fun and polite all the Baltimore people were.

The point it is we may drink and have fun at weddings, but we are all still grown ups and we are all mature adults, and to treat us like little kids and put as at tables as far away as possible because you are embarrassed by us(this has happened at multiple wedding) is just rude and it needs to stop happening
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Soul Mates

Is there really such a thing as a true soul mate. I have to think that there may be people out there that are soul mates, but that does not mean that the person you fall in love with is going to be that person.

When you are in a relationship with someone, you have feelings and emotions and you can build a strong love and foundation with someone, but that does not make them a soul mate.

I agree with the concept of soul mates, and I love having a connection with someone, and I love hearing when people fall in love and they are happy, but I think the term soul mates gets thrown around way to much.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Rathebe's NCAA predictions

Preseason Pac-10:
Top 10 Players
1. Taylor Mays FS U$C
2. Jahvid Best RB California
3. Jacquizz Rodgers RB Oregon St.
4. Syd'Quan Thompson CB California
5. Dexter Davis DE Arizona St.
6. Kris O'Dowd C U$C
7. Aulterraun Verner CB UCLA
8. Brian Price DT UCLA
9. Rob Gronkowski TE Arizona
10. Damien Williams U$C

Awards
OPOY: Jahvid Best RB California
DPOY: Taylor Mays FS USC
ROY: Andrew Luck QB Stanford

Standings
Oregon (7-2)
California (7-2)
USC (7-2)
Oregon St. (6-3)
Arizona St. (5-4)
Stanford (4-5)
UCLA (4-5)
Arizona (4-5)
Washington (1-8)
Washington St. (0-9)

QB: Jeremiah Masoli Oregon
RB: Jahvid Best California
RB: Jacquizz Rodgers Oregon St.
WR: Nyan Boteng California
WR: Damien Williams USC
TE: Rob Gronkowski Arizona
AP: James Rodgers Oregon State
OL: Charles Brown USC
OL: Jeff Byers USC
OL: Kris O'Dowd USC
OL: Mike Remmers Oregon State
OL: Mike Tepper California

DL: Dexter Davis Arizona St.
DL: Lawrence Guy Arizona St.
DL: Brian Price UCLA
DL: Daniel Te'o-Nesheim Washington
LB: Kyle Bosworth UCLA
LB: Reggie Carter UCLA
LB: Keaston Kristick Oregon St.
DB: Taylor Mays USC
DB: Syd'Quan Thompson California
DB: Walter Thurmond Oregon
DB: Aulterraun Verner UCLA

PK: Kai Forbath UCLA
P: Keenyn Crier Arizona

SEC:

Top 10 Players
1. Eric Berry DB Tennsessee
2. Tim Tebow QB Florida
3. Brandon Spikes LB Florida
4. Terrence Cody DT Alabama
5. Rolando McClain LB Alabama
6. Greg Hardy DE Ole Miss
7. Trevard Lindley CB Kentucky
8. Ciron Black OT LSU
9. Rennie Curran LB Georgia
10. Eric Norwood LB South Carolina

Awards
OPOY: Tim Tebow Florida
DPOY: Eric Berry Tennessee
ROY: Andre Debose Florida

Standings
East West
UF (7-1) Miss (6-2)
UGA (6-2) Bama (6-2)
USC (5-3) LSU (6-2)
UT (3-5) AU (4-4)
UK (2-6) Ark (2-6)
Van (1-7) MSU (0-8)

All-Conference Team
QB: Tim Tebow Florida
RB: Charles Scott LSU
RB: Michael Smith Arkansas
WR: AJ Green Georgia
WR: Julio Jones Alabama
TE: DJ Williams Arkansas
AP: Dexter McCluster Ole Miss
OL: Ciron Black LSU
OL: Clint Boling Georgia
OL: John Jerry Ole Miss
OL: Ben Jones Georgia
OL: Lee Ziemba Auburn

DL: Geno Atkins Georgia
DL: Terrence Cody Alabama
DL: Greg Hardy Ole Miss
LB: Rennie Curran Georgia
LB: Rolando McClain Alabama
LB: Eric Norwood South Carolina
LB: Brandon Spikes Florida
DB: Eric Berry Tennessee
DB: Ahmad Black Florida
DB: Joe Haden Florida
DB: Trevard Lindley Kentucky

PK: Joshua Shene Ole Miss
P: Chas Henry Florida

Big 12:

Top 10 Players
1. Colt McCoy QB Texas
2. Gerald McCoy DT Oklahoma
3. Sam Bradford QB Oklahoma
4. Dez Bryant WR Oklahoma St.
5. Russell Okung OT Oklahoma
6. Todd Reesing QB Kansas
7. Zac Robinson QB Oklahoma St.
8. Sean Weatherspoon LB Missouri
9. Ndamakong Suh DT Nebraska
10. Dezmon Briscoe WR Kansas

Awards
OPOY: Colt McCoy QB Texas
DPOY: Ndamakong Suh DT Nebraska
ROY: Alex Okafor DE Texas

Standings
North South
KU (4-4) UT (8-0)
Neb (4-4) OU (7-1)
CU (3-5) Ok St. (6-2)
Mizzou (3-5) Bay (4-4)
ISU (2-6) TTU (4-4)
KSU (2-6) A&M (1-7)

All-Conference Team
QB: Colt McCoy Texas
RB: Kendall Hunter Oklahoma St.
RB: DeMarco Murray Oklahoma
WR: Dezmon Briscoe Kansas
WR: Dez Bryant Oklahoma St.
TE: Jermaine Gresham Oklahoma
AP: Jordan Shipley Texas
OL: Brandon Carter Texas Tech
OL: Chris Hall Texas
OL: Russell Okung Oklahoma St.
OL: Adam Ulatoski Texas
OL: Trent Williams Oklahoma

DL: Jeremy Beal Oklahoma
DL: Sergio Kindle Texas
DL: Gerald McCoy Oklahoma
DL: Ndamakong Suh Nebraska
LB: Travis Lewis Oklahoma
LB: Joe Pawelek Baylor
LB: Sean Weatherspoon Missouri
DB: Cha'pelle Brown Colorado
DB: Dominique Franks Oklahoma
DB: Jordan Lake Baylor
DB: Darrell Stuckey Kansas

PK: Alex Henery Nebraska
P: Justin Tucker Texas

Big East:

Top 10 Players
1. George Selvie DE South Florida
2. Anthony Davis OT Rutgers
3. Mardy Gilyard WR Cincinnati
4. Arthur Jones DT Syracuse
5. Noel Devine RB West Virginia
6. Ryan D'Imperio LB Rutgers
7. Matt Grothe QB South Florida
8. Victor Anderson RB Louisville
9. Nate Allen S South Florida
10. Tony Pike QB Cincinnati

Awards
OPOY: Matt Grothe QB South Florida
DPOY: George Selvie DE South Florida
ROY: Dion Lewis RB Pittsburgh

Standings
South Florida (5-2)
Rutgers (5-2)
West Virginia (4-3)
Pittsburgh (4-3)
Cincinnati (4-3)
UConn (3-4)
Louisville (3-4)
Syracuse (0-7)

All-Conference Team
QB: Matt Grothe South Florida
RB: Victor Anderson Louisville
RB: Noel Devine West Virginia
WR: Jonathan Baldwin Pittsburgh
WR: Mike Williams Syracuse
TE: Nate Byham Pittsburgh
AP: Mardy Gilyard Cincinnati
OL: Ryan Blaszcyk Rutgers
OL: Anthony Davis Rutgers
OL: Kevin Haslem Rutgers
OL: Zach Hermann South Florida
OL: Jeff Linkenbach Cincinnati

DL: Scooter Berry West Virginia
DL: Aurther Jones Syracuse
DL: Greg Romerus Pittsburgh
DL: George Selvie South Florida
LB: Ryan D'Imperio Rutgers
LB: Greg Williams Pittsburgh
LB: Reed Williams West Virginia
DB: Nate Allen South Florida
DB: Aaron Berry Pittsburgh
DB: Dom DeCicco Pittsburgh
DB: Robert Vaughn Connecticut

PK: Jake Rogers Cincinnati
P: Rob Long Syracuse

ACC:

Top 10 Players
1. Jonathan Dwyer RB Georgia Tech
2. Jason Worilds DE Virginia Tech
3. Russell Wilson QB NC State
4. CJ Spiller RB Clemson
5. Morgan Burnett S Georgia Tech
6. Rodney Hudson OG Florida St.
7. Alex Wujciak LB Maryland
8. Stephen Virgil CB Virginia Tech
9. Marvin Austin DT North Carolina
10. Vince Oghobaase DT Duke

Awards
OPOY: Russell Wilson QB NC State
DPOY: Jason Worilds DE Virginia Tech
ROY: Jaccobi McDaniel DT Florida St.

Standings
Atlantic Coastal
FSU (5-3) VT (7-1)
NCSU(5-3) GT (6-2)
WFU (4-4) UNC (5-3)
UMD (4-4) Mia (4-4)
CU (4-4) UVA (2-6)
BC (1-7) Duke (1-7)

All-ACC Team
QB: Russell Wilson NC State
RB: Jonathan Dwyer Georgia Tech
RB: Da'Rel Scott Maryland
WR: Kevin Ogletree Virginia
WR: Demaryius Thomas Georgia Tech
TE: Greg Boone Virginia Tech
AP: CJ Spiller Clemson
OL: Will Barker Virginia
OL: Anthony Costanzo Boston College
OL: Rodney Hudson Florida St.
OL: Sergio Render Virginia Tech
OL: Ed Wang Virginia Tech

DL: Marvin Austin North Carolina
DL: Derrick Morgan Georgia Tech
DL: Vince Oghobaase Duke
DL: Jason Worilds Virginia Tech
LB: Cam Martin Virginia Tech
LB: Quan Sturdivant North Carolina
LB: Alex Wujciak Maryland
DB: Morgan Burnett Georgia Tech
DB: Kendric Burney North Carolina
DB: Kam Chancellor Virginia Tech
DB: Stephen Virgil Virginia Tech

PK: Matt Bosher Miami
P: Travis Baltz Maryland

Karma

does it exist?

Recently, I have beginning to think it does. I keep hearing stories about some bad things that are happening to people that have treated me mead/rudely over time and as much as it sucks for them, I do think that some where deep down they deserve what is happening to them.

On the other side of it, things keep happening to people I know, and they are all great people that are very nice and are always helping out other people, and the things happening to them are good things for them and their lives, and it is good to see Karma coming around and affecting both people in different ways.

I used to not really believe in karma, but over the last 2 months with all of these things happening, I am beginning to think that it does.

Dating in the dark

Does this show have merit?

Last night I watched this show where people have to meet each other and get to know each other and hook up etc.. without ever seeing each other(it is all done in a pitch black room). At the end of the show, they finally get to see each other and then they have to decide if they still want each other.

At first you think this is the worst/cheesy show, but when you think about it the show does have some merit about how important looks really are to people. On the show people who had gotten along and had a good connection, decided not to date at all or to continue what they had, because of how the other person looked. It made me think a lot about how I judge people and how every one I know judges people. If you think about the last time you were out and you met someone or saw someone from across the room, you judged them by how they looked, and you probably didnt even want to learn about who they are.

This show does raise some very interesting points. It makes you think.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

The neighborhood

There are many good and also many bad things about living in Federal Hill. One of the worst things about living down here is that is like a grown-up college town. Some people view this as a good thing, and it does have its benefits, but one of the worst parts of knowing everyone and always seeing the same people is when you do not get along with someone or things like that it makes it crappy.
Right now I am referring to the fact that I was living with a girl 5 weeks ago, and we broke up and she has since started dating a new guy and stays at his place almost every night. As a whole, the situation sucks, but we are grown-ups so you move on and just deal with it. The problem with living down here, is that they live about 80 feet away from me. Every time I step out of my house, no matter what I am doing, there is a chance I can see them. I see his house, I see there cars, I see them walking the dog, and my friends see them all the time. I know(because she emailed me when we first broke up) that it is just as hard on her, but the fact that the break-up and all that stuff keeps getting thrown in my face and every day I have to see something that reminds me of it, just f'ing sucks.

That being said, there are tons of great things about living down in the city, and for now, there is no where else I would want to live.

Standing on a Plane

As I was recently on a plane, I realized how much I hate when people stand up once the plane lands. As I am aware, and I am sure everyone else in the world is aware, once the plane lands and pulls into the terminal, there is at least 8 minutes before people start to move. I have no idea why people stand up as soon as they can, and then just stand there staring around. I can get if their legs are sore, but still, there is no reason to stand for no reason for 10 minutes!!!!