As I have learned, the most important thing to being happy in your life is being able to be happy with yourself and to be proud of the person that you are. For a long time in my life I thought I was happy with my life but I realized I was not happy with myself and the things I was doing in my life that I thought were making me happy, were not at all. I worked very, very hard on myself and how I lived my life to become a person that I was proud of and I was able to lead a life I was proud of.
Recently, I have de-gressed a lot and I am back to being a person I am not happy with and a person I am not proud of. The problem is I keep making excuses for the way I act instead of doing things to change the negative things I am doing. I know what is wrong with me and I know what I want to be doing in my life and I know what I do not want to be doing, and yet, I keep finding myself trending towards the things I should not be doing. Instead of getting help for that and working on keeping myself happy and working on living a life I can be proud of, I keep doing things to bring myself down and I keep making excuses and using things as a crutch that I shouldnt.
A friend recently told me that they "truly think you are in a sturggle between who you want to be and who you are and the who you are wins over" She then told me that it was obvious to her and in turn should have been obvious to myself that I was starting to slip back into the old way, and instead of stopping it and dealing with it, I just let it happen.
I realize now I need to stop using all the negative things that have happenned in my life as excuses and I need to man up and do everything I can to get my life back to a life that I can be proud of.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Heisman Prediction
Season starts Thursday and other predictions and picks will be coming soon, but this is who I see ending up in New York this year.
- Andrew Luck
- Marcus Lattimore
- Blackmon
- David Wilson
- Andrew Luck
- Marcus Lattimore
- Blackmon
- David Wilson
Never judge a relationship
I say this all the time, yet I see it happen all the time. I am not sure why people do this and it kills me when they do.
Everyone I know(ok, everyone except for 2 people) has been in a relationship. Some have turned out good, some have turned out bad. At the end of the day, one thing every person knows is that when it comes to your relationship, only you and your gf/bf really know what is going on. You may talk to your friends and family about the good times or the bad times etc, but in actuality they only know what you allow them to.
When people then start talking about your relationship to other people, it is either them just making up things based on what you told them, using things both people said as sort of a he said/she said thing, or just forming their own opinions. All of those things are unfair and shouldn't happen.
I have tried very hard not to talk about any person's relationship because I know how wrong it is. In my past, I have had some pretty bad thing happen, and the stories I would hear about my relationship from other people shocked me how out of control the stories I got.
If I were to talk about someone's relationship it would only be if something happened in public and there was no thought or opinion in it. Example would be if someone got in a huge fight in public, or if things were posted online et'c. In that case, it is out in the open and there is no opinion in saying, " did you see that" or "what was that about"
I am just so sick of people talking about other people's relationship when they really do not know the full story
Everyone I know(ok, everyone except for 2 people) has been in a relationship. Some have turned out good, some have turned out bad. At the end of the day, one thing every person knows is that when it comes to your relationship, only you and your gf/bf really know what is going on. You may talk to your friends and family about the good times or the bad times etc, but in actuality they only know what you allow them to.
When people then start talking about your relationship to other people, it is either them just making up things based on what you told them, using things both people said as sort of a he said/she said thing, or just forming their own opinions. All of those things are unfair and shouldn't happen.
I have tried very hard not to talk about any person's relationship because I know how wrong it is. In my past, I have had some pretty bad thing happen, and the stories I would hear about my relationship from other people shocked me how out of control the stories I got.
If I were to talk about someone's relationship it would only be if something happened in public and there was no thought or opinion in it. Example would be if someone got in a huge fight in public, or if things were posted online et'c. In that case, it is out in the open and there is no opinion in saying, " did you see that" or "what was that about"
I am just so sick of people talking about other people's relationship when they really do not know the full story
Diet and Exercise
I am going to start tracking this stuff. My love of food will make it so I can never truly diet, since I will always eat what I want when I want, but I do need to lower some of my portions and maybe watch calories a little.
Also, I have gotten back into the gym and running and I can def. see a change physically but the weight change isn't that much. I think that has to do with a combo of gaining muscle that weighs more and just the fact that I do not have a ton of weight to lose.
I am going to track on here starting today, what I eat and how I work out and then I can look back and see for myself how awful my eating habits actuall are.
Monday, 8/29
- glass of OJ, breakfast
- pretzels and water all day, no lunch
- chips and salsa at home
- steamed veggies in cheese sauce- sort of an app at home
- Pasta for dinner( Rotini Recipe with ground turkey, peas, chedder cheese melted in and light afredo sauce
- Worked out during day, did all arms and stomach, no running
Tuesday, 8/30
- Iced Coffee
- Pretzels and Triscuits during the day, no lunch
- Worked out Chest and Stomach at gym
- wine and leftover pizza for dinner
Wed, 8/31
- no breakfast
- no lunch
- no working out
- grilled cheeseburger and a salad for dinner
Thur, 9/1
- glass of oj
- went running
- no lunch
- chicken pad thai for dinner
Fri, 9/2
- guiness
- small turkey wrap and small veggie wrap- drinkas and food were at this booth thing i stopped by at grand prix after picking up 5k packet
- ran 3 miles
- worked out arms and stomach
- no dinner
Sat, 9/3
- ran in morning
- chicken tenders and western fries for lunch
- 2 cheeseburgers, pigs in blanket, cheese pockets, chips and salsa, - all at a cookout/bday party
Sun, 9/4
- ran 2.9 miles
- worked out chest and stomach
- beers and a cheesesteak
- slice of pizza
Mon, 9/5
- small plate of pizza rolls for lunch
- ribs and baked beans(ribs made in crock pot all day)
Tue, 9/6
- no breakfast or lunch
- sun chips as a snack
- ran about 2.5 miles
- 3 slices of pizza for dinner
Wed, 9/7
- worked out chest
- no breakfast
- 2 slices of pizza for lunch
- bbq pulled chicken for dinner
Thur, 9/8
- ran 3 miles
- worked out
- bbq wings for lunch
- no breakfast or dinner
- cupcake and brownie for snack
Fri, 9/9
- no breakfast
- no lunch
- ran 3.2 miles
Sat, 9/10(I finally started eating real again it looks like this weekend)
- ran 3ish miles
- 1.5 pounds of pulled pork for late lunch/dinner
Sun, 9/11
- egg and cheese biscuit
- walked 2 miles
- Italian sausage
- veggies and dip
- chips and taco dip
- boneless buffalo bites and some meatballs from crock pot
Mon, 9/12
- ran for 30 minutes
- worked out arms and shoulder
- no break or lunch
- pork sandwhich with grilled pineapple and sauce and a side salad for dinner
Tue, 9/13
- no breakfast
- ran 1.2 miles
- worked out chest and tricepts
- ran 1.2 miles home from gym
- pork quesidilla for lunch
Also, I have gotten back into the gym and running and I can def. see a change physically but the weight change isn't that much. I think that has to do with a combo of gaining muscle that weighs more and just the fact that I do not have a ton of weight to lose.
I am going to track on here starting today, what I eat and how I work out and then I can look back and see for myself how awful my eating habits actuall are.
Monday, 8/29
- glass of OJ, breakfast
- pretzels and water all day, no lunch
- chips and salsa at home
- steamed veggies in cheese sauce- sort of an app at home
- Pasta for dinner( Rotini Recipe with ground turkey, peas, chedder cheese melted in and light afredo sauce
- Worked out during day, did all arms and stomach, no running
Tuesday, 8/30
- Iced Coffee
- Pretzels and Triscuits during the day, no lunch
- Worked out Chest and Stomach at gym
- wine and leftover pizza for dinner
Wed, 8/31
- no breakfast
- no lunch
- no working out
- grilled cheeseburger and a salad for dinner
Thur, 9/1
- glass of oj
- went running
- no lunch
- chicken pad thai for dinner
Fri, 9/2
- guiness
- small turkey wrap and small veggie wrap- drinkas and food were at this booth thing i stopped by at grand prix after picking up 5k packet
- ran 3 miles
- worked out arms and stomach
- no dinner
Sat, 9/3
- ran in morning
- chicken tenders and western fries for lunch
- 2 cheeseburgers, pigs in blanket, cheese pockets, chips and salsa, - all at a cookout/bday party
Sun, 9/4
- ran 2.9 miles
- worked out chest and stomach
- beers and a cheesesteak
- slice of pizza
Mon, 9/5
- small plate of pizza rolls for lunch
- ribs and baked beans(ribs made in crock pot all day)
Tue, 9/6
- no breakfast or lunch
- sun chips as a snack
- ran about 2.5 miles
- 3 slices of pizza for dinner
Wed, 9/7
- worked out chest
- no breakfast
- 2 slices of pizza for lunch
- bbq pulled chicken for dinner
Thur, 9/8
- ran 3 miles
- worked out
- bbq wings for lunch
- no breakfast or dinner
- cupcake and brownie for snack
Fri, 9/9
- no breakfast
- no lunch
- ran 3.2 miles
Sat, 9/10(I finally started eating real again it looks like this weekend)
- ran 3ish miles
- 1.5 pounds of pulled pork for late lunch/dinner
Sun, 9/11
- egg and cheese biscuit
- walked 2 miles
- Italian sausage
- veggies and dip
- chips and taco dip
- boneless buffalo bites and some meatballs from crock pot
Mon, 9/12
- ran for 30 minutes
- worked out arms and shoulder
- no break or lunch
- pork sandwhich with grilled pineapple and sauce and a side salad for dinner
Tue, 9/13
- no breakfast
- ran 1.2 miles
- worked out chest and tricepts
- ran 1.2 miles home from gym
- pork quesidilla for lunch
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