The neighborhood

There are many good and also many bad things about living in Federal Hill. One of the worst things about living down here is that is like a grown-up college town. Some people view this as a good thing, and it does have its benefits, but one of the worst parts of knowing everyone and always seeing the same people is when you do not get along with someone or things like that it makes it crappy.
Right now I am referring to the fact that I was living with a girl 5 weeks ago, and we broke up and she has since started dating a new guy and stays at his place almost every night. As a whole, the situation sucks, but we are grown-ups so you move on and just deal with it. The problem with living down here, is that they live about 80 feet away from me. Every time I step out of my house, no matter what I am doing, there is a chance I can see them. I see his house, I see there cars, I see them walking the dog, and my friends see them all the time. I know(because she emailed me when we first broke up) that it is just as hard on her, but the fact that the break-up and all that stuff keeps getting thrown in my face and every day I have to see something that reminds me of it, just f'ing sucks.

That being said, there are tons of great things about living down in the city, and for now, there is no where else I would want to live.

Standing on a Plane

As I was recently on a plane, I realized how much I hate when people stand up once the plane lands. As I am aware, and I am sure everyone else in the world is aware, once the plane lands and pulls into the terminal, there is at least 8 minutes before people start to move. I have no idea why people stand up as soon as they can, and then just stand there staring around. I can get if their legs are sore, but still, there is no reason to stand for no reason for 10 minutes!!!!

29 and Single

Here I am, 29 and single. Part of me is happy to be in this position, and the other part of me is a little depressed about it.

Here is what I know now, I have a large group of close friends and about 95% of them are with someone special and are with the person that they will probably get married to. I thought I was with the person I was going to marry, I was very mistaken. I feel like a loser. This is how my friends follow:
Have a serious GF- Mike K, Matt M, Matt D, Brad C, Tj, Hall, Wes, Adam, Bill
Are not dating anyone- Chris R, Matt L, Bates

I am not happy about why I am single, but the upside is I have now been hurt and crushed and lied to by two different girls, that I think that there is no way it can happen again, so the next person I get serious with, will know my past and there is no way of that happening again.I am single and I can enjoy my life and when I meet someone, I will know it is right.

The flip side of that is, I am now 29, I have been divorced, I just got out of another serious relationship, am I now viewed as damaged goods or looked at as someone who a girl wouldn't want to be with?

The other thing that enters the equation is that I want to have a kid at some point. I don't know when that time will come, or what my life will bring me, but I know that this is what I have been dealt now, and now I have to move on.