My 10-year reunion was this past weekend, and it went pretty much how I expected it to. People catching up, exaggerating their life and what they are currently doing, getting very drunk, the end. The flip side is that I had to plan the whole thing, since our president is the worse. I know I complain about it, but at the same time, I enjoy planning and organizing things like that.
The weird thing was I was still a little nervous the week leading up to it, and very nervous that day. I was not nervous for some of the reasons you would expect people to be nervous for a thing like that( some people actually told me these were reasons they almost didn't come); i was a dork in high school and no one will talk to me, i was embarrassed about certain things so I didn't want to go, i didn't like this person 10 years ago, so I have no reason to go and hang out with them, etc...
I was nervous, because I had planned it, and I wanted to make sure it went well and that every person there had a good time. I'm sure anyone that would have planned it, would have thought that for a minute, but that feeling stuck with me. That leads to a deeper feeling that I am trying to stop, but for some reason I can not.
I feel the need to always make sure other people are happy and I will do whatever I can to make them that way. Some call it being a push-over or a pussy, but it is not exactly like that. I am trying to lead my life for myself; only doing what I want, when I want to do it, not going somewhere or doing something because someone else want me to. Yet, when something like this comes up, I fall right back into the trap of making sure everyone is happy, and not for one second thinking about myself or caring if I was very happy.
The truth is, I didn't want to plan it, and I wasn't 100% sold on going to it. But over the last year, I had gotten calls and emails asking me the details about it, and our president called me and said she wasn't going to do it at all, I just took it upon myself to plan it. I didn't do that for myself, I did it so everyone would have a 10 year reunion, and everyone would be happy.
I would like to think that 10 years after high school, I can lead my life for myself, and not based on other people, but it looks like I still have a ton of growing up to do.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Things we learned this weekend
things we learned this weekend:
- dallas is going to win the nfc
- Larry Johnson will not be a chief next year
- les miles has balls
- i have a whole new respect for yankee stadium and yankee fans after last night
- oooooooooooosa oooooooooooooosa golf entertained us all with there team play and attitude
- when purple patio is crowded, its the best place in fed hill
- no one from my grade has changed much in 10 years
- I dont like my house and I will be moved out within a year
- I need to play more poker during the week, my skills are dwindalin
- trading ronnie brown for kevin walter seemed ok at the beggining of the week
- not taking felix jones brandon jacobs also seemed like a good idea at the beggining of the week
- most of my friends have serious drinking problems, but no one is ever going to tell each other that or actually do anything about it
- the orioles wont finish above .500 for at least the next 5 years
- what is wrong with the colts
- if the betting scale from worse to best is mead to tj, then the football scale should be the state of ohio to the the state of penn.
- dallas is going to win the nfc
- Larry Johnson will not be a chief next year
- les miles has balls
- i have a whole new respect for yankee stadium and yankee fans after last night
- oooooooooooosa oooooooooooooosa golf entertained us all with there team play and attitude
- when purple patio is crowded, its the best place in fed hill
- no one from my grade has changed much in 10 years
- I dont like my house and I will be moved out within a year
- I need to play more poker during the week, my skills are dwindalin
- trading ronnie brown for kevin walter seemed ok at the beggining of the week
- not taking felix jones brandon jacobs also seemed like a good idea at the beggining of the week
- most of my friends have serious drinking problems, but no one is ever going to tell each other that or actually do anything about it
- the orioles wont finish above .500 for at least the next 5 years
- what is wrong with the colts
- if the betting scale from worse to best is mead to tj, then the football scale should be the state of ohio to the the state of penn.
When do you have a problem???
How do you know when you have a problem in your life?? For some they may drink to much, for other shop to much, other gamble, etc... There are plenty of things in life that people have problems and addictions with. Some people treat girls and relationships awful, others would rather get high every single day and never leave the house. The problem with all of these things that if you are so tangled up in your problem, a. how do you know you have a problem, and b. have you surrounded yourself with people like you, so their is no one to tell you that you do have a problem.
An example would be if someone drank way to much, and was on a road of self-destruction. If that person has surrounded themselves with only drinking buddies and other locals at bars and liquor stores, who is there to tell them that they have a problem and that they are on a bad bath??? This could be applied to a women who is spending every pay check she gets on new purses, shoes, shits, etc...She is then showing all of these to her friends, co-workers, and others. All she hears back from them, is how great she looks, how great everything on her looks, and then people are asking her to go shopping with her soon. This women will never see that she has an addiction to shopping and is throwing away all of her money, the same way the drunk will never realize that he has a problem, because no one around them will take the time to talk to them about it.
On the other side, how do you go about talking to someone about this without sounding like a hypocrite? If everyone you know, including yourself, drinks and gambles and does things, but their someone specific you think does it way to much, how do you talk to that person and get them to take you seriously if you are the one with them every night doing those things??
It is tough to know when you have a problem or when you are on a path of self-destruction, all I can hope for is that my friends are man enough to ever let me know if they something that I do not.
An example would be if someone drank way to much, and was on a road of self-destruction. If that person has surrounded themselves with only drinking buddies and other locals at bars and liquor stores, who is there to tell them that they have a problem and that they are on a bad bath??? This could be applied to a women who is spending every pay check she gets on new purses, shoes, shits, etc...She is then showing all of these to her friends, co-workers, and others. All she hears back from them, is how great she looks, how great everything on her looks, and then people are asking her to go shopping with her soon. This women will never see that she has an addiction to shopping and is throwing away all of her money, the same way the drunk will never realize that he has a problem, because no one around them will take the time to talk to them about it.
On the other side, how do you go about talking to someone about this without sounding like a hypocrite? If everyone you know, including yourself, drinks and gambles and does things, but their someone specific you think does it way to much, how do you talk to that person and get them to take you seriously if you are the one with them every night doing those things??
It is tough to know when you have a problem or when you are on a path of self-destruction, all I can hope for is that my friends are man enough to ever let me know if they something that I do not.
Money
I have led my whole life not caring about money. By not caring, I mean I acted the exact same if I had money or if I didnt have money. I grew up an only child being raised by 2 single parents, who both struggled to make tons of money. I got used to not having all the luxory's that some of my friends did, even though my parents did everything in their power to make sure I was happy and had everything I needed. I learned to get by and have fun without having tons of money, and on the flip side when I did have money, I found myself being careless with it and not worrying about saving it and just going on my life. I feel like over the years, it is finally starting to catch up with me.
A few years ago I had a job where I was making a ton of money. I found myself having more money then I knew what to do with. I was spending money every way I could, but I was(to my credit) finding ways to save some of that money also. Eventually I left that job, but I never really left my spending patterns that I developed at that job. Since then, I have had numerous jobs that have all paid less that then that one did, and yet I find myself not saving really any at all, but yet, I am still spending money on stupid things and blowing money in ways I don't really want to. It is almost like I have no control over my life, and I just do things and don't worry about any of the consequences. I am starting a new job next Monday and I am making a promise to myself, that I will stop by frivolous spending and start saving money like a grown-up and acting the way I should have been the last 5 or so years....
A few years ago I had a job where I was making a ton of money. I found myself having more money then I knew what to do with. I was spending money every way I could, but I was(to my credit) finding ways to save some of that money also. Eventually I left that job, but I never really left my spending patterns that I developed at that job. Since then, I have had numerous jobs that have all paid less that then that one did, and yet I find myself not saving really any at all, but yet, I am still spending money on stupid things and blowing money in ways I don't really want to. It is almost like I have no control over my life, and I just do things and don't worry about any of the consequences. I am starting a new job next Monday and I am making a promise to myself, that I will stop by frivolous spending and start saving money like a grown-up and acting the way I should have been the last 5 or so years....
Blaming Others
In the last 2 weeks of sports we have seen very bad calls by the officials that have in some way changed the outcome of the games. There was a celebration call in the byu/wsh game that made the extra pt 15 yards longer, and then it got blocked. There was also the fumble in the den/sd game that was called an incomplete pass. Denver then went on to score and win the game, even though the correct call was to give the ball to SD and end the game. In both of these cases, the teams still had a chance to play and win the game, but they lost anyway, and instead of taking responsibility for their respective losses, they blamed the refs. SD had 3 chances to stop Denver from scoring the gw touchdown and the 2-pt conversion, instead their defense gave up 2 scores in 3 plays, and wash let byu block the extra kick.
This got me thinking on how myself along with the majority of my friends blame other people and other events for things that happen in their own life, when for the most part, a person can only control what happens to themselves. I know that I am guilty of this almost every day of my life. I let something that someone else says or does affect the way I think or what I do. I have to start living my life based on what I want to do and how I want to, not based on what other people do or how I think other people want to act.
I am going to tell myself that starting today, I am going to act the way I want and not let other people influence me or control me. We will see how it goes....
This got me thinking on how myself along with the majority of my friends blame other people and other events for things that happen in their own life, when for the most part, a person can only control what happens to themselves. I know that I am guilty of this almost every day of my life. I let something that someone else says or does affect the way I think or what I do. I have to start living my life based on what I want to do and how I want to, not based on what other people do or how I think other people want to act.
I am going to tell myself that starting today, I am going to act the way I want and not let other people influence me or control me. We will see how it goes....
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
take-a-ways from this weekend
my take-a-ways from this weekend:
- bachelor parties are always a great time
- jason campell assured everone that he is the starter for the skins for the next 5 years with his play yesterday in the 4th quarter
- if you start chanting enough, people will join in( the whole center field section and then all of hustler club chanting " mikey keller, clap clap clap clap"
- from now on if someone wants to know if they are a good gambler or not, the scale will be from brandon mead to tj lauer, since they are the worst and best respectively
- brian hey and i will be 2 of the final 4 playing at the table in 2 months to go to vegas
- jeff sugrue has a severe drinking problem
- penn state is going to win the big 10
- the 4th quarter between sd and denver is the 3rd best 4th quarter of football I have ever seen
- vt wont hit an over all year
- having kurt warner and jay cutler as your fantasy qb's is a win-win situation
- joe hicks and mithc allen both had no idea who meghan fox was
- the lady at nick's fish house has 2 beer pong and 1 flip cup table set up for us for the reunion this saturday
- chase daniel has more td passes then he does incompletions
- dan keller is the most selfish person I know
- dave willey is bff with every stripper in bmore
- chris and I played a ncaa game last night that was more entertaining then any game on tv saturday
- darren sproles may not be the fastest guy in the nfl, but he is very high up there
- I tihnk the winner of tonight's game will play the winner of gb/ nyg for the nfc championship
- denver will win the sb
- bachelor parties are always a great time
- jason campell assured everone that he is the starter for the skins for the next 5 years with his play yesterday in the 4th quarter
- if you start chanting enough, people will join in( the whole center field section and then all of hustler club chanting " mikey keller, clap clap clap clap"
- from now on if someone wants to know if they are a good gambler or not, the scale will be from brandon mead to tj lauer, since they are the worst and best respectively
- brian hey and i will be 2 of the final 4 playing at the table in 2 months to go to vegas
- jeff sugrue has a severe drinking problem
- penn state is going to win the big 10
- the 4th quarter between sd and denver is the 3rd best 4th quarter of football I have ever seen
- vt wont hit an over all year
- having kurt warner and jay cutler as your fantasy qb's is a win-win situation
- joe hicks and mithc allen both had no idea who meghan fox was
- the lady at nick's fish house has 2 beer pong and 1 flip cup table set up for us for the reunion this saturday
- chase daniel has more td passes then he does incompletions
- dan keller is the most selfish person I know
- dave willey is bff with every stripper in bmore
- chris and I played a ncaa game last night that was more entertaining then any game on tv saturday
- darren sproles may not be the fastest guy in the nfl, but he is very high up there
- I tihnk the winner of tonight's game will play the winner of gb/ nyg for the nfc championship
- denver will win the sb
choices for the day
- better draft class:
marino's class in nfl, lebron's class in nba, jordan's class in nba
- best 2pac song
- better set of college roomates;
steve mariucchi and tom izzo, chris rathebe and joe gibison, brandon mead and joe hicks
- better hater of the knicks: m. jordon, l. bird, or r. miller
- loiuseu you would rather hang out with :
mia or lilly
- a worse group of people:
the cast of seinfeld vs. the cast of sunny in philadelphia
- better group of drinkers:
cast of cheers vs. the 13 of us that were on the 8/8/8 crawl
- better game: no limit omaha or knickey
- better hip-hop love song:
i cant wait- akon, the light- common, you're all i need- meth and mary j
- better guest on wild n' out- tara reid, snoop, or faboulous
- better corner- darrell green or deion sanders
- what do these have in common:
dog biscuit, pepper, diet coke
- which mead has bigger boobs: joe or brandon
marino's class in nfl, lebron's class in nba, jordan's class in nba
- best 2pac song
- better set of college roomates;
steve mariucchi and tom izzo, chris rathebe and joe gibison, brandon mead and joe hicks
- better hater of the knicks: m. jordon, l. bird, or r. miller
- loiuseu you would rather hang out with :
mia or lilly
- a worse group of people:
the cast of seinfeld vs. the cast of sunny in philadelphia
- better group of drinkers:
cast of cheers vs. the 13 of us that were on the 8/8/8 crawl
- better game: no limit omaha or knickey
- better hip-hop love song:
i cant wait- akon, the light- common, you're all i need- meth and mary j
- better guest on wild n' out- tara reid, snoop, or faboulous
- better corner- darrell green or deion sanders
- what do these have in common:
dog biscuit, pepper, diet coke
- which mead has bigger boobs: joe or brandon
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