going to bars

In the last 6-8 weeks, I really haven't been out to bars at all, and I have no problem with it. When I do go out to a bar, I have fun, and I still do out from time to time ,but it is always for a reason, it is never just to go to a bar to get wasted. It is nice to know that I don't need to be doing that anymore and it is nice to know that I can still enjoy it while im out, but I really dont want to be there and I don't feel the need to go there.

It used to be when I would go out, people would say things like they haven't seen me for a while and ask where I have been and stuff like I haven't been around just because they didnt see me at bars. That used to get me to almost get defensive and it would make me think that I need to be out more etc. I them realized that most of the people that say that have never once invited me to go anywhere with them that isnt a bar, and that if they really were my friend or really wanted to hang out, they would invite me to their house or to a party or anywhere that wasnt a bar. I am now at the point where when people say that to me, I just responded, you are right, I have been doing other things to enjoy my life. If someone is only going to be my friend if I am out to a bar with them, then I don't need that person to be a friend.

Don't get me wrong, I still love to have fun and I love a good time, but I don't need that good time to be spending all day and all night at a bar just getting wasted. Last Sunday, a bunch of us were out at a bar for the Ravens game. The game ended and we went home and hung out and did things and had a great rest of the Sunday. The majority of my friends stayed out, got wasted all day and night etc, and they all said they had a great time. I know they had their fun, but that type of fun of spending all day and night at a bar is just not appealing to me anymore and I really don't need to be doing that to have fun.

I guess this all stems from the fact that I am happy with my life, I love my gf, I love being with her and spending time with her, and sitting with her on our couch just doing nothing is more fun and enjoyable to me then any night at the bars. I just hate that it took me this long in my life to realize it. I do hope that the people I know that are still going out to bars 2-4 days every week and getting blackout wasted all the time, will eventually find something else that makes them happy instead of getting wasted all the time. I am not saying that is a bad thing, because I used to do it, and it can be a lot of fun, I just think for me, at my age and where I am in my life, that part of my life is behind me and having fun for a couple hours is one thing, but the all day and all night drinking fests at a bar and the hangovers and all of that are something in the past for me.

true happiness

I have always thought of myself as a happy person, but I always had things that would get me sad and bring me down etc. Recently, I have found myself way more happy and just always in a good mood. Of course, I still have things that stress me out and things I worry about it and things that get me down etc, but overall I am just so happy with my life right now and the people in my life, that those things seem not as big of as a deal as they used to be, and I can just go along being happy with my life now.

I realize now, that all the times I thought I was happy, I was not truly happy, it was more of a shield and a cover and I would just ignore all of the down things. Now I am at a point, where if something is wrong or upsetting me etc, I deal with it, but at the end of the day, it doesn't get me down or stress me out anymore. I know that is because I am truly happy, and I know that being happy with myself and my life is the most important thing. It is so great to know that I am happy from minute I wake up until the minute I fall asleep. I have been waiting a long time to be this happy, and I finally glad that my life is in a place where I am truly happy.