Why?

every person has lingering questions and thoughts in their head, but for me, it seems like it is these same questions the force me to get up and go through my day are the same questions that make it so i cant sleep and get depressed. It is amazing to me how so many thoughts can be in my head at one time, and when those thoughts choose to come out and when they choose to hide....

Will I ever find true love again?
If I find that love, will I be able to accept it?
Will my friends every truly respect me?
Will I ever truly respect myself?
Why have i never fully grieved for when my mom died?
Why does Amie act like having an affair against me is not a big deal at all?
Why can I not tell people how I really feel about them?
Do people really like me, or are theu just either feeling pity for me or using me for something?
Will I ever move out of towson?
Will I ever stop smoking pot?
Could I go a month without drinking?
Do I really like myself, or am i just getting by?
Why do I blow money when I know I should be saving?

Those are just some of the questions that just will not leave my head!!!!!!

1st post

I have always wanted to post blogs, and was always to lazy/scared/embarassed, etc....
anyway, it seems this is a great way to get out most of my feelings and emotions and not have to actually tell them to someone to there face.